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Tuesday, February 3, 2009 - Rockhound State Park, Deming NM

Red, Leasburg Dam State Park, Radium Springs NM, January 23, 2009
Red, Leasburg Dam State Park, Radium Springs NM, January 23, 2009

At least I got my laundry done

My noon arrival at Rockhound was too late for me to find an open site with hook-ups. I might have done better coming to the park first and then going back to Deming to do laundry. Maybe. As is often the case at this park, there are several people drycamping waiting to play musical sites in the morning if someone leaves.

Night camp

Site 4 - Rockhound State Park, Deming NM

It was the Crickets

Now then: it isn't so much that one way of dying beats another, though that certainly is the case, but rather that when you KNOW the jig could be up any second or any decade -- it's the awareness that's important -- that just might make a difference. I'm like everybody else, I have these moments and then forget, lapsing back into "immortality." But there was a thing that happened in my back yard maybe 18 months before we split from Maryland that hit me as hard as seeing their president drop dead on stage must have hit those graduating seniors.

It was the crickets. I'd gone outside one warm fall evening to shut the garage door and suddenly realized I couldn't hear the crickets! No wait, I could, but only if I turned my head a certain way. Oh God, oh no: I had almost no high-frequency hearing in my right ear, or was it my left? That doesn't matter. The point is, a part of me had shut down permanently. No, it hadn't happened suddenly, but I had finally noticed, and that was hard to take. I'd never again hear crickets like I once had. Never! I walked back to the house in tears. All right, I'm sensitive. But I understood at once what all this meant.

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